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[May. 10th, 2008|08:16 am] |
Shit, I just read my last longer post from March 2007. I wish I could have kept that kind of attitude. I have a hard time believing I even wrote that. AH WELL, I deserve this...
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[May. 10th, 2008|08:04 am] |
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Hey everybody. How's life?
I was an idiot and deleted my Myspace and Facebook and now I'm feeling the effects of it. I've been cut off from all contact with humanity besides my mother, Sam, Mike and multitudes of Tim Hortons customers.
Rather than complain about how lonely I am though (OH SNAP, FAIL) thought I'd just let everyone know I'm still alive and miss you loads. It's called staying in contact: try it out! Now, I know it's equally my fault for not trying to stay in touch, but we all know it's easier to pass the blame.
In other news... I lost my cellphone right after I changed the number. Now I have no phone and I can't even remember my number. I'm going to have to contact Rogers soon and fix that.
I know I've said this a million times, but I might start writing here again. I need some sort of outlet for my thoughts.
Survey for you all though. What the hell could I do for a living?! I need to finish my education, but I have no idea what I'd like to do. Add to that my insanely lazy nature and you've got a recipe for an asshole Tim Hortons manager living in his parents' basement the rest of his life. I hate self-pitying (in general, I'm pretty happy right now actually) but even my folks are getting sick of the direction I've taken.
Also, is drinking alone still counted as drinking alone when you're doing it with other people on X-Box Live? |
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[Mar. 16th, 2007|04:40 am] |
There's nothing in my future but rude customers.
Ah well, at least I've got World of Warcraft. |
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| Fucked up story from my MSN space... |
[Jan. 23rd, 2007|05:01 pm] |
I found this on my MSN space after forgetting that I had wrote it a couple of months ago. Check it out if you want. I at least think it's amusing and says something about the state of mind I was in while writing it. It's an interesting little fantasy.
( Road's end... ) |
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| Update...? |
[Jan. 23rd, 2007|04:35 pm] |
I suppose it's time to update. Lots of opportunity coming my way soon... I have no idea how I'm going to handle it all, but I'm finally ready to give it a go.
I've been working at a Tim Horton's with Sam for a couple of months now. Minimum wage is terrible, but working with my best friend at a pretty casual job has been fun. Plus, in a couple of months I'll have benefits, which means I can finally get a new pair of glasses and some contacts.
I'm moving back in with my parents on February 1st. I know it seems like a step backwards to many people, and definitely isn't the "coolest" choice I could make... but as you all well know, "coolness" isn't really something that concerns me in the least. I'm excited about the possibility for stability and even more excited about the opportunity to save money!
I'm finally going to get those last two high school credits, take driver's education and start looking towards the future. There comes a certain age where people like me give in and realize you need to go through a couple of years of boring monotony working for "the man" before things really start to come into bloom. Now it's just too bad I spent the last couple of years living paycheck to paycheck and living in a stony haze...
So, I've decided on the 1st that I'm going to quit smoking cigarettes and pot, cold turkey. It's going to be such an awkward transition for me moving back home, that I figure a little bit of added stress from withdrawal and sober ennui won't hurt me in the long run. I'm going to start eating healthy and working out again as well. I had lost about 30lbs for a while there last year, but this Tim Horton's job and doughnut munching has had it's toll on me. I'm going to be a fucking sexy beast, and I won't settle for anything less. By the time my hair starts getting ponytail length again, I'll be ready to slay the ladies with my good looks and sharp sober wit... but seriously, I'm just doing this for myself.
Now, the whole lot of you probably think I'm being redundant with another one of these "pat on the back, looking towards the future" type updates... but this time, it's for real. The gears are in motion and nothing can stop me now. Time to pull myself out of the gutter and become the productive motherfucker I know I can be. Not necessarily productive to society... but there's so much I want to do and I know I can do, I just haven't had the esteem or clarity to get them done.
The world is swelling with ripe opportunity for those who don't let their own negativity continue self-defeating themselves. Self-defeat... I've been embracing it for years, now it's time to be the ubermensch I feel I can be! I've been trampled on for years, but only because I've been laying in the sidewalk, so to say. It's time for me to pave a new one with the skeletons of the past, and build a golden temple of opportunity atop. I've forgotten who I am in the name of social networking... BAH!!! NO MORE!!!
I'm ready, let's go...
I'll update again in a month or two. I guarantee you will be surprised, or else I will have failed. Period. |
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[Dec. 8th, 2006|09:16 am] |
Eh, I'm bored. I took a picture with my camera phone at work. So... here it is.
Wow, don't I look sleep deprived...? |
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[Sep. 1st, 2006|04:46 pm] |
My job has been going great. Not much else to say about it, besides re-iterating how good it feels to have a job again.
I got my first paycheck... $747 and after taxes, not too shabby. Nothing extravagent, but definitely not shabby. I wonder what the linguistics of the word "shabby" are anyway? Probably just a colloquial term.
So yeah... I never really update this thing anymore, so it's hard to get back into the flow of doing so.
I bought some whisky and beer and will be purchasing another fun herbal remedy for tonight. I'm looking forward to it after a long, hard week of sobriety. "LeT's GeT fUcKeD uP!!!!1111OMG" :P |
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[Aug. 24th, 2006|05:42 pm] |
I finally got a job. I've been there for two weeks now and it's been good so far. Definitely not mentally stimulating, but who gives a fuck?
Yeah, no more drama for me. It's been awesome having an excuse to go to bed early and having somewhere to go during the day. NO MORE SKETCHBAGS!!! FUCK YEAH!!! |
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[Jul. 24th, 2006|03:26 am] |
I saw Lady In The Water by M. Night Shabadabamamamalayanamanabab..... or whoever today. Sam paid for the ticket, so it should have been good as it was a free movie. Now I wish they gave time refunds.
Do NOT go see this film. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2006|01:57 am] |
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
| ✓ I miss somebody right now. (I miss lots of people) |
× I don't watch much TV these days. (I'm between jobs, the idiot box numbs my brain as it's designed to) |
✓ I own lots of books. |
| ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. |
✓ I love to play video games. (Go NES!!!) |
✓ I've tried marijuana. (Yeah... umm, a couple times...) |
| ✓ I've watched porn movies. |
× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. |
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. |
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. |
× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. |
( it goes on... ) |
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[Jul. 14th, 2006|01:44 am] |
Unknown Pleasures is SUPERB!!!
Most pointless update ever, or no? |
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| First update in a long time... |
[Jul. 5th, 2006|03:24 am] |
I've been trying to keep busy for the past few days.
On Sunday night I went biking for about three hours out past Bridgeport to Woolwich with Casey. By the time we got back to my apartment, I was so soaked in sweat that it looked like I just crawled out of the shower. We went outside after that to try to find some marijuana for Casey. It was a fucking stupid, pointless search... but he made me go cause he didn't want to get beaten up... Oy... Vey... We did run into Mercedes and friend though, which was pleasant enough.
Monday I went to Port Dover with my mom, sister, niece and nephew. I've realized I actually kind of like the beach, even if I still won't take my shirt off. It's just too bad that it was overcast, cold and raining all day. I still had fun, although next time I have to remember to bring money for food with me, not pack disgusting sandwiches. If it's made by me, it's a disgusting sandwich. When I got back into town, Kyle Waal called me and said he was coming over... I love how he never, ever asks me on the phone if he can bring the 3/4/whatever people who usually follow him if he's been downtown over to my apartment too, yet they come! I was fucking exhausted... I usually like company... but Monday night; nu-uh. So yeah, Kyle, I don't care if it's not Paul, fucking ask next time. Whine, whine, whine, bitch, bitch, bitch, problems, problems, problems... HAH!!! Oh wait, you're in Toronto for a while anyway... did you remember to tell Brandi so she won't call me confused and yelling?
Tuesday/today I was awake after only about six hours of sleep (what?! Me?! Sleep less than 12 hours?!) and went to the Elora casino for breakfast with my mom. Not the place you'd expect to be eating at 9am, really... but she had some winner's gift certificate or something. I believe it may have been Ashley who said so on my LJ friends list, but I agree; breakfast food is so, so, soooooooooo good! I got some disgusting, huge platter of bacon, ham, sausage, three eggs, homefries and a bunch of toast. It was damn good. In fact... now that I think about it, I haven't eaten since then and it's 3:35am!!! AHHH!!! Why doesn't my stomach rumble anymore?
After that, went to Liberty Staffing (guess who's really, really, really, sick of being an unemployed loser?!) and wasted about an hour and a half with them registering. Hopefully when I call them back they'll offer me better positions than Prior has offered me. Also handed in more resumes around town at a bunch of random factories and nonsense... moving home will be happening soon, I'm just not allowed to move back home unless I find a job. I'm getting really sick of my lifestyle. More on that in some other inevitable update...
So, got back from job searching then the real fun began. My buddy Evan is doing some contract work stripping and waxing floors at elementary schools. He needed my help just for today at K.W. Bilingual School moving all of the desks, chairs, filing cabinets, etc. from the classrooms into the hallways. Doesn't really sound hard, but considering how much we moved, I'm surprised we did it in the time we did... I was there from 7:30am to 2am, working my ass off the whole time. Nevermind that I biked there, from Downtown Kitchener waaaay past Uptown Waterloo on Erb St. and back. I've never been so sore in my life. Feels nice. Now, time to get a job, keep biking and working on this positive outlook thing and maybe someday I could have a nice lady-friend Goddess to work all the kinks out of my muscles and to lavish with oh-such-romantic attention. Haha... maybe someday.
I'm too tired to be doing this. I'm going to eat, shower then pass out. Don't expect me awake too early tomorrow; I'm the most physically exhausted I've ever been, I think that's why my brain's working on overload and I'm actually updating Livejournal for once.
I miss some of you folks who don't associate with me anymore... I haven't gone braindead you know, so get your heads out of your asses and say hello sometime. I see no reason why anyone I was close with could have stopped talking with me besides disliking some of my PERSONAL vices. Yeah, yeah, my lifestyle sucks.
Anyway, time to do that aforementioned eat, shower, pass out thing.
- Coil :P
P.S./Edit - Yeah, I know it's trendy to whine, whine, whine, bitch and complain about things you have no interest in (I've been guilty of it enough damn times) but cut it out. Sometimes the whole "I'm so counter-culture and y'know it, cunt,fag,boot,kickDIE!!!!" stuff is irritating. |
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[May. 24th, 2006|02:50 pm] |
So... does anybody need a self-proclaimed pirate for a roommate? Because... well... I don't anymore. I really, really, really don't. I'm going crazy and I'm going to kill him someday soon, or at least it feels like the right thing to do. Hahaha... Well, I'm off to masturbate! Wait.. Can't do that anymore, there's a fuckhead sleeping on my couch. OOOOOOOOOOH SHIT!!! |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2006|11:02 am] |
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I haven't been in a good mood for weeks.
I need a job. Any ideas, people?
Katie stopped talking to me like... 3 weeks ago. That really, really, really, really, really pisses me off. At least I'm pretty fuckin' disappointed. To say I'm angry would be a total lie, but I am confused as fuck. She probably found some asshole with a sense of fashion.
I actually don't blame her for going away. She came back into my life at the most inopportune time she could have. I'm unemployed and moping around worse than I did in high school, not exactly the sexiest qualities. Still, she made me smile... so I'm sad to see her go. A final e-hug goes out to you if you read this, Kate. :P I miss you.
I've been drinking way too much. I hate alcohol, but I hate hopelessness, boredom and angst even more. So... drink up, my friends!
Derek has been hanging out with some really stupid girls lately. Catholic school ditzy girls in fact. They like to get drunk and laugh at the funny faces I make. Problem is, I never realize I'm making any faces until they laugh at me and say something... so what he fuck are they talking about?! I don't think I've been called weird as often as this before. Makes me feel good though. I called the fake plastic black parenting class baby (?) one of them has a robot and she was shocked and called me the biggest weirdo she's ever met. People are so stupid sometimes... I can't even try to be cheerful and humourous around these girls cause they don't share my sense of humour at all.
Anyway, I'm done. This is boring. |
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[Mar. 9th, 2006|02:30 pm] |
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Remember, the picture has to be taken at some crazy obscure angle or it's not artistic! |
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